through the dark

My past is a dark and unforgettable past... it has left me beaten and scared in more ways then one.. these scares run deep and are unhealable... as i walked alone in a path so dark that not even with the aid of a match could you see your own hand in front of your face... this place was darker then any place on earth... this place... was a place where i carried a burden... a burden only one person could bare... but should be carried by so many... but it was charged to I... The one that God trusted to keep this curse safe from the eyes of humanity... this curse is a burden that only an angel of God's highest caliber could bare.. I am known as Gabriel Wolfbane Phoenix.. I am an angel at the left hand of God... i am a dark angel... a cursed angel... one who shall bare an unbareable curse alone... this journey has left me exhausted and wounded... these wounds are physical and emotional.. i was left no child hood... no memories of anything good in my childhood... only glimpses of horrible images that was once my past... and me... the things i have done can not be undone... and what i would not give to go back and change that... to have friends... through the nine years i know of my 16 years on this earth... i walked alone and friendless... no one to call friend... no one who carried weather i lived or died... not a soul... i have been left alone for so long that my emotions are almost gone... no fear.. no joy... no happiness... no love... nothing at all.. not even mercy is left... i have become what some would call.... insane... but i assure you that i am saner then you... being robed of my emotions and my childhood.. i have become... faster.. stronger... smarter then most would ever hope to be... the only thing that i long for anymore... is someone... someone who will not run away... someone who will hold me close and not let go... someone who will love me.. for who i am... the past nine years have been hard... the last year was even harder... with the death of 2 of my grandparents... my life was falling apart at the seems... nothing was fitting together... i sought revenge for those i knew that could not defend themselves... i sought no mercy... the people i sought after were the scum of the earth... those who harm the weak... shall pay for what they have done.. and when i am done with them they will be begging me for death... and just as i was slipping even deeper into the darkness i was in... a light appeared and a hand reached out and a voice came from the light saying... "Grab my hand"... As the hand pulled me up.. i realized that it was not a man that cam to my rescue... it was a women... a lady... a teen age girl... with long blond hair... beautiful face... breathtaking eyes... and such a sweet voice.. as my eyes met hers... i knew at that moment that God sent her to save me.. she is prefect in every way imaginable... her name is Candance Elizabeth Lorelle... the one person i was looking for found me... and i am so thankful for that...